Hi, I stumbled across this site about a week ago and thought I would join the conversation. I've been gravitating to gory stuff for years now. It all started when I was contemplating suicide and I was googling suicide by train to try and maximize my chances of an instant death. I was fascinated by the amount of people who survived for at least a few minutes after been sliced in half by a train. Needless to say it put me off but it enhanced my fascination with gore, death, torture and all things of that nature.